I’m overwhelmed, in a good way, for the first time in a long time. I’m not sure I can even put into words the response that I’ve gotten today after finally putting this story out there. I was flooded with comments, re-posts, private messages, texts, and head nods at work. Everything from words of encouragement, to “I’ve been there”, to “I know someone who needed this”. I even had a couple of people tell me they’re going through loss right now and that it’s too raw for them to talk about right now. My response, GIRL. That’s been me for the last 15 months, I feel you. I get it. It’s all been a lot, in a good way.
Also, some people are even saying I’m funny, which in all honesty is the ultimate goal if we are keeping it all the way real. 🙂
Things I have thought at some point today:
- At least people understand how/why I’ve not been myself
- At least people won’t think I’m pregnant because I’m chubby right now
- At least people won’t think I’m pregnant because I’m not drinking right now
- At least I don’t have to explain this to more people in person whilst sobbing
- I really wish I could have a glass of wine
- My friends, family and network are the BOMB (not new, just confirmed)
The range of emotions I have felt today, include, but are not limited to:
- A couple of times, annoyed. To be explained later.
If the enormous reaction I received has done anything, it has proven the need for this, or stuff like this. Our ovaries should not be hiding in the shadows! Sometimes having some lady cojones, and putting yourself out there, while utterly terrifying, also feels pretty awesome.
Try it, if you want to!
My plan is to try and post twice a week. Once a week will be a throwback post where I talk a little about what I’ve been through already. I guess the bonus to being too chicken to put this out for a long time is that I have a stock pile of topics and stories ready. The other weekly post will be more random; what I’m currently dealing with or just a general topic like one of these beauties I’ve been working on: Resentment 101, If One More Person Tells Me To Relax, How to Unsuccessfully Mask That You’ve Been Crying, and Why Do All of the Shitty Phone Calls Come When You’re at Work?
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